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 Entrapped by my own loneliness That gradually eating my empathy And my heart that you broke into pieces Yet I am numb off this agony What I can hold onto are only those memories With some unconscious imagery Slowly, I started to forget how you looks like, love Tell me, do you also feel this too, my dear?  With this sentiment, I call it enough Taking heavy steps, walk toward the new door "Thank you, and goodbye, love"

I'm dreaming Of a blue ocean and a dark sky Of cool breeze and soft sands Of brilliant starlight and tranquil vibe Then I'm dreaming again Of white cloud and bright light Of hot sun rays and rocky ground Of breathtaking scenery and beautiful feeling As I dream again and again I stray away from reality The place where I don't want me to be I close my eyes and drift my mind away Yes, I'm dreaming again Of a place where pain doesn't exist Place where tired souls may rest Place where dreams come true

Smile that doesn't come from my eyes Storm that happens in my heart Facade that is invisible to the eyes But can be seen by the heart The 4 walls have become my safe haven He has been my silent witness Seeing me stripping away my mask and naked in this haven Where there's no need to fake my happiness Soul full of bruises and scars Eyes that tired of crying Depressive thoughts counted like stars Shrugging it off, I went to sleep Another hollow day come like a ghost Another mask is used to fool Another facade to decorate Already broken glass tried to be fixed This toxicity of habit, I'm used to it Human's heart is easy to fool This habit of mine, I never realize it My human's heart is already a fool

Dark, moonless, and cloudy sky Night wind, cold and bruised hands Hot tears, blank eyes, and stoic face Empty stares, tired and unbothered facade Contemplating to end the red line That feels bittersweet on the tongue Has got me entangled like a vine Left my heart with a pang The sparks already die The affection already gone The joy already left The feel already vanished Plain, even bitter Memories turned to dust Light replaced with darkness One last word before I end it all Goodbye.

Worries that left unanswered Words that left unspoken My heart that left unexplored My soul that left untouched Being this selfless is what I am It's quite stupid, yes I am My love is getting stronger day by day Your presence is getting weaker day by day Running with eyes closed tight And the result was nothing I give up on this fight Untouchability of your heart is really something Blinded by love, clouding my mind In my head, you are the one Your substitute is what I need to find Ironically, I found no one Reality hit me hard like a truck I have a life that must go on I'm not going to let myself stuck I have the need to move on Although it's hard, but I don't mind I have the need to let you go Since you always clouding my mind I've learnt the art of letting go

Fascinating yet worrisome Beautiful yet full of scars Contain lots of anomaly Yet I saw it like a calm ocean So deep that I cannot touch So vast that I cannot understand But that's what trigger my interest Just like a secret garden your soul is Contain lots of black and white rose Mysterious but tender is what you are Can you show me the path To where your secret garden is? To the place where your heart guarded To the place where I can see you Naked and open So I can marveling the beauty The art of your soul

You beside me is what I seek Blinded by love is what I am now So to God is where I go and seek To wish for you beside me now Feels like struck by thunder Realizing the reason things were undone Step back and look at the big picture I've known what I've done You is what He promised I call you my Land of Covenant But you're just a bonus that can be had Because the main course is The One who give the covenant I've learnt to not fill my mind with you And focus on what the window show But sometimes thinking of you is what I do It's silly, yeah I know The One is what my focus now With faith I run to The One No need to worry now I'll get you after I seek The One